Wednesday, June 18, 2014

Doing what is right for me.....

Hindsight is always 100%.  But without the benefit of distance, knowing the right thing is not that easy.  I've always struggled with figuring out which path is the right one for me.  Right now, I am weighing whether to make a change.  And, as usual, I am uncertain.  I know what my goal is.  I want to live out the rest of my working life in a calm and peaceful situation.  Right now, work is anything but.  On the other hand...I don't want to run away if this is something I can learn new coping skills from.  So, what should I do?

I was reminded by a friend today, all I have to do is what is right for me.  I need to keep myself safe.  I need to take care of myself physically and emotionally. I am the priority.  When my daughter was a child, I was responsible for taking care of her.  In the exact same way.  If I felt that my child was in a threatening situation, it was my responsibility to evaluate what was the best course of action.  It was my job to be aware of her well-being.  I made decisions all the time in an attempt to do my best for her.  Now, it is my time to do the same for myself.

When I was caring for my daughter, I am sure that I didn't always make the correct decision. But at the time, I thought that I was making the right choice.  At this point, I have to do the same for Judy. And I will.  I will take the time to weigh options.  I will confront the issues that are occurring at work head-on.  Then I will choose what is right for me.  In short, I will love and nurture myself.  Just like I did with my daughter.  The only wrong in this situation is not caring for myself.

Are you faced with situations in which you have to make choices to care for yourself?  Are you able to do it?  Remember...there is no right or wrong.  You only have to do what is right...for you.  That is all.

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