Depression leads one to believe the worst is going to happen. One of my worst patterns is that I can see the negative and the worst case scenario in any life situation. I assume the worst. And when it does happen, I am not surprised. That is a totally stressful way to live. Instead of seeing a silver lining, I see black clouds. Which I think means that I create my own negativity. I was reminded about this during a recent visit with my daughter and her roommate. (Who is like another daughter.). Here is the situation: When I meet with the two of them for a Sunday adventure, I'm frequently kept in the dark about where we are going. J. and J. will tell me we are going to Vegas when I ask where we are going. Since we live in Tennessee, I'm pretty sure that isn't the case. But neither one of them will tell me what our destination is.
Today I was told again that we were going to Vegas. Depressed Judy would have assumed that they were heading where I didn't want to go. Or wondered if they were taking me somewhere I would have to walk too much. Or I might have become offended that they wouldn't tell me. What's different with Judy in recovery? I assume the adventure will be fun. I see the possibility in the situation. I assume that if my legs get tired, I will find a place to sit. In short, I am open to fun. And today I wasn't disappointed.
We went to a local food truck vendor. This food truck specializes in New Orleans style snowcones. Since I am a diabetic, the ladies don't usually encourage me to have sweets. But these snowcones come with a sugar free option in certain flavors. And they are incredible. I have not had a snowcone in a long time. It was a great deal of fun. I felt nurtured and cared for. And I was reminded that sometimes trust will lead me to Vegas. And a super snowcone. Life really has possibility that my depression doesn't allow me to see. I'm so happy that I've utilized the tools necessary to see the positive.
What about you? Are you willing to head to Vegas for a snowcone? Open your mind and heart to the possibility. My "inner child" is still smiling.
Today I was told again that we were going to Vegas. Depressed Judy would have assumed that they were heading where I didn't want to go. Or wondered if they were taking me somewhere I would have to walk too much. Or I might have become offended that they wouldn't tell me. What's different with Judy in recovery? I assume the adventure will be fun. I see the possibility in the situation. I assume that if my legs get tired, I will find a place to sit. In short, I am open to fun. And today I wasn't disappointed.
We went to a local food truck vendor. This food truck specializes in New Orleans style snowcones. Since I am a diabetic, the ladies don't usually encourage me to have sweets. But these snowcones come with a sugar free option in certain flavors. And they are incredible. I have not had a snowcone in a long time. It was a great deal of fun. I felt nurtured and cared for. And I was reminded that sometimes trust will lead me to Vegas. And a super snowcone. Life really has possibility that my depression doesn't allow me to see. I'm so happy that I've utilized the tools necessary to see the positive.
What about you? Are you willing to head to Vegas for a snowcone? Open your mind and heart to the possibility. My "inner child" is still smiling.
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