For me, depression leads me to believe that all doors are closed. Not just closed...but slammed shut. With a huge sign that says: "Not for you, Judy. Don't even try". But when I am in recovery, I have a different view. While I don't see every door as totally open, I do recognize that they are more open than I recognize. And there isn't only black and white. Sometimes a closed door opens another door. There is an old saying in sales....every "NO" leads to an eventual "YES". Recovery leads me to have an actual view of possibility. So, it is a much healthier view.
How does this work in my life? Prior to my move to Tennessee, I was attempting to create a business. Whether my failure was the result of the economy or my own failings is almost immaterial. The result was the same. Uncertainty, the loss of a valued relationship, and living far away from my family led me to the edge with depression. I was suicidal. Without medication. And finding it difficult to get help. When I did finally get help, it led to the momentous decision to go to Tennessee. Which has opened doors. To a job. To new friendships. To my family. To medical care. And to a writing project that I hope to bring to fruition in book form.
Is it perfect? In a word, NO! Life is still filled with problems: Money, learning to live with other imperfect people, equipment breakdowns, loneliness without a partner, health problems, and aging. To name a few. But it seems more normal now. And I am able to deal with it. Life on life's terms. With possibility. I'm able to see that I am capable. And a good person. Deserving of a peaceful life.
I'm able to appreciate the gifts that life offers. And to live, even with the problems, in calm.
What about you? Do you see nothing but closed doors? If so, it may be time to get help. You really do deserve recovery. Medication and therapy are ways to open the door. And support is important. Give yourself a gift. Reach out today. And hear what your support system is telling you.
How does this work in my life? Prior to my move to Tennessee, I was attempting to create a business. Whether my failure was the result of the economy or my own failings is almost immaterial. The result was the same. Uncertainty, the loss of a valued relationship, and living far away from my family led me to the edge with depression. I was suicidal. Without medication. And finding it difficult to get help. When I did finally get help, it led to the momentous decision to go to Tennessee. Which has opened doors. To a job. To new friendships. To my family. To medical care. And to a writing project that I hope to bring to fruition in book form.
Is it perfect? In a word, NO! Life is still filled with problems: Money, learning to live with other imperfect people, equipment breakdowns, loneliness without a partner, health problems, and aging. To name a few. But it seems more normal now. And I am able to deal with it. Life on life's terms. With possibility. I'm able to see that I am capable. And a good person. Deserving of a peaceful life.
I'm able to appreciate the gifts that life offers. And to live, even with the problems, in calm.
What about you? Do you see nothing but closed doors? If so, it may be time to get help. You really do deserve recovery. Medication and therapy are ways to open the door. And support is important. Give yourself a gift. Reach out today. And hear what your support system is telling you.
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