So, in
looking for a way to describe the experience of living in depression, I started
picturing a box. When you are depressed,
you are stuck in this box. You have no
room. The box makes your world small. You can’t see outside the box. It’s painful because your freedom of movement
is impacted by the fact that the box is small.
You feel achy because you can’t stretch out. You can’t see possibility
outside of the box because the box is your whole world. In other words, you are very constrained. Now, many people would say that the box is
self-imposed. But those people don’t
have an understanding of the biochemical nature of depression. If you can picture it, the box is due to
biochemistry and personal history. This is
truly what makes it difficult to escape.
The box is solid. If there isn’t
an intervention of some kind, you are unlikely to be able to see an escape.
I have
spent some time trying to understand the suicide of Ernest Hemingway. I can see the ‘box’ that Hemingway was
dealing with towards the end of his life.
The Hemingway family did have issues with biochemical mental illness. Starting with Ernest Hemingway’s father, the
Hemingway family dealt with multiple suicides. There have been at least six
suicides in this family and I wouldn’t hesitate to say that all of them were
related to biochemical issues. This
article explains a lot of the reasons behind Ernest Hemingway’s suicide: http://ind.pn/mHCuLv
The article explains that Ernest dealt
with many mental health issues, including bipolar disease, depression, chronic
alcoholism, and repetitive brain injury.
Apparently, he had many brain injuries due to risk-taking behaviors
related to how he grew up. Hemingway had gender issues connected to his
relationship with his mother. They gave him kind of a hyper-masculinity which
found expression in the way he lived his life.
It also exacerbated his depression as he aged and his abilities as a
writer deteriorated.
I can
certainly see the box in Ernest Hemingway’s life. Can you?
He was boxed in by his depression and bipolar disease. He was further boxed in by his alcoholism. Strengthening the walls of his box was his
history with his family and the resulting gender issues. His mother dressed him
in girl’s clothing in early childhood resulting in feeling the need to prove
his masculinity. And in addition, his
father committed suicide. Compounding
all of this was a pretty extensive history of serious brain injury. Looking at it in that way, his suicide seems
almost inevitable. The layers of his box
were pretty strong and made escape improbable.
Like most of us, Hemingway had more than one layer to his box. Intervention should involve addressing all
the layers. (I’m not really sure what kind of intervention was done with Ernest
Hemingway.)
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